how adele's songs influence me. yes fishy

The stars and the moon are out again

And with earphones on,

I write about you

It is always about you

I bet there's already a special cushion

For you in my mind

And i never love it to be this way  

I really hate this. i hate to have you in my mind

But again,

I don't even have the chance to win over my mind

I don't know

I know that i should get up and run

Run fast enough to mend this

It should've not turned out this way

But it just so happens

That i fall deeper each day

Into that hole, the hole that i dug

All by myself

Every time i try to crawl back to the point where it started

I know that i crawl towards the wrong direction

And the direction is you again

And I'm sorry

I hate myself for this too

I'm mad at myself of not being able 

To teach my heart to stop wanting thing which is not mine

Not mine at first and would not be mine forever.

And that is just not enough to crumb my heart
The fact that  i will never reach you no matter how fast i crawl

Until my limbs are full of wounds

Im scared that my heart  will still want you

Im scared that you are the thing that cause damages to me

They said love is sweet but why do i feel pain?

How can i love too much? I don't know. Maybe you have the answer?