they said dont care too much on what other people might think, but then why we hv rules? why do we have that sort of norms to be followed and obeyed? im still in between whether to be brave to be true or whether to conceal my true self. my thought is a mess. when it comes to things that i care the most. and it could be you.

it is 1.31am. and im still up. writing this post. it's been awhile since the last time i posted here. it's not that im tired of writing. but things get easier when no one knows about you. what youre thinking etc. i love this space. so much i love this space. the space which first teaches me about giving out and letting out what's inside. me, and fina created this blog, last semester, approximately a week before our finals. and today, im back!

Dear Woman

Written by: Michael E. Reid

Sometimes,
You'll just be too much woman,
Too smart,
Too beautiful,
Too strong,
Too much of something
Tha makes a man feel like less of a man,
Which will start making like you have to be less of a woman,
The biggest mistake you can make
Is removing jewels from your crown
To make it easier for a man to carry.
When this happens, I need you to understand,
You do not need a smaller crown--
You need a man with bigger hands.

it's easy to tell but it's hard to do.

 i should have stopped earlier before i fall deeper. i should have stopped
 i should have walked away.

and now im bearing the price of not.

mama :D

i remember your sweet smile,
it is as sweet as the last smile of sunset.
i remember your sweet smile,
it is as sweet as the infant spring,
i remember your sweet smile,
it is as sweet as morning dew upon a rose.

i can always recall your soft voice,
nothing more soothing as it is
i can always recall your soft voice,
it is always a honey topped candy to my ears
i can always recall your soft voice,
the voice that can shut all the gloominess
the most favorable voice among all

medicine for lifetime, without cavil, you are.
be it bright, be it rainbow, be it thunderstorm, yes you are.
you were there, you'll always be there and always be there,
for me, and for us.
thank you mom :)

how adele's songs influence me. yes fishy

The stars and the moon are out again

And with earphones on,

I write about you

It is always about you

I bet there's already a special cushion

For you in my mind

And i never love it to be this way  

I really hate this. i hate to have you in my mind

But again,

I don't even have the chance to win over my mind

I don't know

I know that i should get up and run

Run fast enough to mend this

It should've not turned out this way

But it just so happens

That i fall deeper each day

Into that hole, the hole that i dug

All by myself

Every time i try to crawl back to the point where it started

I know that i crawl towards the wrong direction

And the direction is you again

And I'm sorry

I hate myself for this too

I'm mad at myself of not being able 

To teach my heart to stop wanting thing which is not mine

Not mine at first and would not be mine forever.

And that is just not enough to crumb my heart
The fact that  i will never reach you no matter how fast i crawl

Until my limbs are full of wounds

Im scared that my heart  will still want you

Im scared that you are the thing that cause damages to me

They said love is sweet but why do i feel pain?

How can i love too much? I don't know. Maybe you have the answer? 

jjangg

Hye there ;)..it's been a while since we update this blog..

Sorry, recently me and hana we're both are really hectic with assignments, presentation and test but the good news is that next week is our midsem break, I really need a break rn, from pressure, from drama n from tons of works that need to be done..
Now, ..let's talk about motivation. Because I'm in need of motivation. It's hurt when u already tried ur best but then..hmm, it's ashamed when u lose hopes doing something that u love, Yeah it's true.. like Lana del rey in Born to die "sometimes love is not enough, and the road gets tough"..The path gets bumpy, but u need to keep moving on no matter what. No matter how many times u screw up, just keep going. Okay! This is just uni life,  my mom said there's a lot to face in the future but that makes u stronger.. so let's just try to enjoy and cherish in the meantime.Alright!

"Sooner or later, those who win are those who think they can"- This quote convinced me that when u think u can, u can.. So just be brave enough. but need to work your ass too..no pain no gain, am I right?

I want to be there

I just want you to know that no matter who you are or wherever you are.. no mater how hard or how bad your day is, there's someone out there is fighting the hardest battle just want to stay alive, to keep breathing. There is a person who will do anything just to feed his/her stomach. The other side of the world that people are still struggling, But you, complaining how bad your real life while you don't seem to care that u still have your family, friends or even good health.

hana as a group leader :

"ok ni hana dh cari subpoint utk assignment kita, nk ikut ikut la.. klau xnk sudah, gondola btul"

my laughing partner

im tht kind of person yg nk cerita something kt org tp gelak dulu before cerita. patu tak leh cerita sbb tak stop gelak. cerita sambil gelak n org tak faham. but thiviya fhm. even my brother always make ._. kind of face bila nk cerita soemthing kt dia and gelak dulu.

org buat jokes, and im the who who takes the longest time to stop laughing. org dah hbis gelak and im the one yg masih struggle nk tahan gelak dlm kls sbb nnt lecturer pandang. (but selalu nya dgn kawan lagi sorg yg mcm ni, thiviya) mudah terhibur. 

hari-hari gelak dalam kelas sebab benda mengarut. eg : lecturer sebut something and nk jot down tp feeling confused apa dia ckp sbrnya, pastu gelak. "a priori" ke "apriori" sbb dua2 ada maksud lain. and bila lecturer sebut nama mcm complicated pun gelak jugak. pandang kawan sblh n gelak (thiviya org tu)

selalu gelak tgk international student naik kancil. sbb mcm kereta mainan. and ada dua kali cerita kancil tu tekan brake and inertia dia kuat sgt sampai org tu ter kedepan, and me with thiviya gelak sampai penat. kereta mati enjin time jln dpn kitrg pun pnh jugak. maybe dia angkat clutch lagu sgt and tak press minyak kot. 

pintu dua terbukak time kereta gerak pun kitorg pnh tgk. selalu ada kes kelakar dgn kancil. 

kancil pun isu sensitif buat gelak . 

but kancil byk jasa spepanjang kt sini. naik kancil bf kawan pergi kls, pergi ikut dorg dating jd penyibuk and byk lagi.

sbnrnya hari2 gelak dgn thiviya. benda remeh pun we will take it as bahan nak gelak. thiviya sgt mudah terhibur and kadang msg dgn dia pun gelak mcm apa. dia sgt melayu. dia tulis "ou alo." instead of "huk aloh". dia suka nk ckp mcm loghat2 tp tak jd. dia sebut pokok as pokiaq. and dia nyanyi pun lagu jiwang melayu zaman 1990-2000 punya. 

dia suka ckp, "hana plsss laa, oh my god hana" bila nmpk mcm blur and tak layan org and tgh otak fikir benda lain time org tgh ckp and bila tgh ego taknak tunjuk kisah kt org. 

but actually im not tht blur ok :p memang ditakdirkan muka mcm blur sentiasa kott and mcm ada question marks byk.  entah lah. 

this post is made fr her actually. i would like to thank her fr being one of my bestfriends. thnks fr being my laughing partner, jogging partner and byk lagi. :D

Dear you,

....

U and I, are totally on two different level.

 U are like a flower and I'm just like a bug. 

if its meant to be , it will be. 

For now, I'll just move on.

Though u never know n never will be.

For some things are better left unsaid.

Memoriesss

One day, today which is full of  funny events.. okayy, let's start from  the beginning

1) Discussion session with Prof A
- Today, we need to discuss about Law n society, we all have been assigned to explain about our chapter, everyone with serious chapter like law as social control, law as dispute resolution, law as consumer protection n etc, actually she gave us that material to read since last semester, n most of us already lost that paper..fortunately, I found mine, but different cases with Hana, thiv n siva..they lost it. So they managed to find that book from the library. Yang kelakarnya, Siva tersalah  pilih chapter, tak tau la dia punya tajuk pasal apa tapi dia asyik ulang ayat "paddeyyy" "paddeyy" ""paddeyy" thiviya expression was so funny, so we found out actually siva read the wrong one, the one who was not been assigned to any of us.

2) We got free food today, first one from prof A, and the second one from Dr I..We had lunch together with him..We discussed n laughed, Dr I, known as someone who "mudah terhibur"..Dalam kelas mesti dia akan gelak walaupun kitorang x rasa pun lawak. Tadi dia dkt kafe mmg gelak kuat sangat..actually we really like him as our lecturer,,so funny, Kitorang gelak sbb cara dia gelakk, so dia gelak kitorang pon gelak

3)meredah banjir untuk balik cuti raya haji
so bus kitorang pkul 11, tapi pergi stesen pkul 9, we hang out n had dinner at kfc, the weather was really bad,n the rain was so heavy ..makan punya makan tengok banjir dah kt dpn kfc paras lutut dah tgok lelaki tadi jalan, hana n thiv dah la bwk luggage besar gila mcm mini  fridge , meredah hujan banjir..kitorang gelak je sepanjang jalan, dengan melintas jalannya ..Thiv said that "how impressive, we can handle this without man" Hana said "girls power"! Thiv's luggage was so heavy, n she was the smallest. hmm, how hard that could be while carrying kfc food..

 I will remember this, What a great moment n inshaa Allah will be our long-lasting memories.
Okayy, How lucky bcoz now Wifi in our bus is great. So I want to watch running man now, byee

My turn

read wht fina wrote abt me and .. Shiz betul dia kantoi kan psl nyanyi fuck u tu. yeah, i admit tht. And i often put cactus emoji when im mad. Lol ok now i want to describe fina.

When i first met her in our first sem, i thought that she really is a quiet girl and a "no-joke" kind of girl. She looked so serious when we first met. And tetiba pulak dia masuk debat piala dekan under law society programme. I was.. Wow dia ni takut nya sgn dia. But no. I was wrong -.- she uncovered her true identity in sem 2. She loves to sing in class. She dances, she prot in front of me, we went to alor setar together (menyibuk kacau jiha dating) and we had done so many things together. 

FIna is a very active student, in and also outside the class. She loves to give her ideas and opinions, she is a brave type of girl. Dia pernah cakap kat lecturer yg paling kitorg takut mcm ni "i think we can continue later bcs we want to eat". We were like.. Bapak ah dia ni, tau la lapar, tp berani nya weh.  She joined so many activities either sport activity, event and so on. She loves cake. She loves food. She loves spending money to have fun. She loves going to changlun (main kat arcade and karaoke) even when exam is just around the corner.

lagi satu, dia sgt careLess. Tktau la apa dia fikir, but dia tak sayang harta. Purse tinggal merata, laptop tinggal dlm teksi. And that's why she is not a good stalker. she accidentally liked a photo of my brother's friend, on instagram. *facepalm*. Hopefully nanti kawin anak terjaga. (kalau tgk mcm serabut sgt, hana boleh tolong jaga, tau ahhahaha)

Fina is a night person. dia tidur bila dah masuk pagi. i dont know wht she's doing but maybe watch korean dramas / show / youtube  dan lain2.
she is very confident in everything she does. nampak la ciri-ciri berkeyakinan tu when she talks , by the way she walks and all.
 fina sgt kelakar, apa je dia buat selalu buat org gelak tanpa dia sedar. pasal "play safe" dalam kereta, psl benda2 mengarut, dia expert sikit. we are all girls so we are quite open when we talk abt adult things, abt guys, abt personal matters and all. i love small group and circle of friends. byk kepala susah nk deal with. I dont know wht type of guy she interested to, but i think she love guys who can debate well ehehehehe, Like lmndn maybe heeee :p lmnd is my brother's friend.

Ok that's all from me. harap our friendship lasts forever, dgn thiviya, pqah, jiha, siva and dena. Harap fina tak marah org reveal her true colors  heheh :p

LET me tell you about Hana..

We planned to write about what we think about each other, Hana and her own world. My first impression bout her = she seems quiet, friendly and polite..But now I realized all of them are true, well most of it la kan, but as we're already on 3rd sem together as classmates I noticed something unique about her.

she can be really mad at something and at one point can swear while smiling to other people around her. She used to sing "fuck u" by Lily Allen to show that she dislikes about something. Although she got almost 4 flat in both cgpa n Hana actually rejected 2 offers first from MMU LAW tajaan jpa ke MARA  x inggat, n second, a degree law in Uitm, which is what she wanted at fIRST, However, apart from all of her achievement as first class degree student rn but she still seems so blurr = =.. That guy, entahlah x inggat nama dia tegur, but handsome n nice( I met him before) panggil hana lebih tiga kali nak tnya pasal something hana buat x tahu bila tnya rupanya hana x perasan,,LOL, that guy clearly tnya dia wktu tu kesian plak, (n benda tu bukan berlaku sekali tpi lebih)..hana have a same taste of music just like me, we love Daughtry, classics N we don't have any specific genre of music that we like, if we like that music, then we'll like .

She just kind of person who seems to be quiet n passive, she don't want to participate in society or club in our uni.. she used to join ALSA(Asian Law Students Associations) in sem1 as ajk for some of their events but after that n until now, no.. except for this new upcoming hockey event I asked her to join as urusetia so that we can have sira( merit as reward if u join activities) n just now she is a group leader in our teras subject tu pon lepas dipaksa dia boleh tipu cakap" sem ni hana bz gila with that innocent face,  our classmates laughed coz we knew she is not that bz, pdahal mereput dlm bilikzz  ..She is totally not an outspoken person, p,s: hana: be firm ..so people don't easily take u for granted...ACTUALLY I used to be that kind of person who used to keep silent and easily agreed n hard to express what I'm honestly trying to say..but now I learned that people should learn to be honest n voice out their opinion in manner n not such a heartless way(rude, cruel).

Her opinion about GUY: she wants someone to be true so that the relationship will be less complicated, if u love someone then u should act like one. Hana is so meticulous n weird, during last semester break she wanted to bring all of her stuff with her(sedangkan boleh tinggal barang dalam stor kolej) it's different when u have ur own car so that u can pack everything in it, tapi balik cuti sem naik bas kot, sampai abang bos tu perli "nak cuti 6 bulan kenalah bwak kontena ni" hahahaha.. we just laughed and embarrassed at the same time.



What I like about her as friend: hmm nothing :)..hahaha, nahh
well although she is quiet, but she will advise and correct u when you are wrong, but for those who are close enough with her. She is caring and have vital skills to be a good future mother, she really good = sewing and cooking. My karaoke partner n can sing well too..She can give her wise opinion n honestly will say it from her heart, I wish we can be good company for 3 years more n 4 more semesters in uum n the last one, I don't know: will be the buziest final sem n we hope that we can grad with flying colour..
p:s hana ;P be good

the blind side

   Sandra Bullock is one of my favourites..The reasons what I like about her?  well, bcoz my mom is her fan, she is an amazing actress that can act with serious, funny, freak(all about steve) loving"(as mom, the blind side) etc characters. E.g about her  movies that I love are miss congeniality 1 & 2, speed, the proposal, the lake house etc.

But today, I want to talk about the blind side..you see this movie is based on the true story which brings an inspiring message. Here I will give the blind side synopsis: 

• Seventeen year old Michael Oher, an extremely large, physically imposing black youth, grew up in the projects in Memphis. He no longer lives with his drug addicted mother, but is in foster care when he isn't running away to sleep wherever else he can find. Out of circumstances including Coach Burt Cotton's belief that he would be an asset to the school's football program based solely on his size and seeing him move, Michael is accepted into Wingate Christian School - an exclusive private school - despite his abysmal 0.6 GPA. After Michael starts attending classes at Wingate, most of his teachers believe he is unteachable, except his science teacher, Mrs. Boswell, who begins to understand that he learns in a different way. Believing he is indeed homeless, Caucasian and staunch Republican Leigh Anne Tuohy - mother of Wingate students, teenCollins Tuohy and adolescent S.J. Tuohy, and wife to Sean Tuohy, franchise owner of several Taco Bells - invites Michael to stay in the Tuohy's upscale home for the night. But that one night slowly extends itself both in terms of time and emotion as the Tuohys begin to treat Michael like one of the family and visa versa. Part of that emotional investment for Leigh Anne is fully understanding Michael as a person so that he can fulfill his potential as a human being, which includes giving him opportunities such as what Coach Cotton initially saw in Michael as a potential left tackle. Potential problems include Michael's poor academic standing which may prohibit him from participating in extracurricular activities at the school, his learning disability which may extend to other aspects of his life beyond his schooling, whether he actually can play football, and authorities questioning Leigh Anne and all the Tuohy's motivations in inviting Michael into their home and family.
  - Written by Huggo

Reference: http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0878804/plotsummary

This is the real family, sources google images..

Message and inspiring quotes about this movie is that no matter how hard it would be but with proper love and attention nothing is impossible. Everyone deserved to love and to be loved. Michael Oher hard work does pay off. The one who can choose to be someone or something for you is you. This is your life and you have freedom to choose but need to pay with your own hard work too.   HERE are some useful and motivational quotes to share ;) : sources : google images



" Courage is always tricky if u always do what others tell u to do, any fools can have courage but honour, that is the real reason u do something or u don't. You should hope for courage and have honour". - Michael Oher

let's not fall in love

Bigbang's song "let's not fall in love" is daebakk! Fall in love over again with them..

This song reminds me that sometimes people choose to have a safe relationship. Hmm like in terms of "we are more than friend but less than a lover".This is because people just afraid of getting hurt with break ups and how to deal with "move on' process. I'm not saying this is the better way, but it depends on each and every one perspectives. some might think that if we are happy as we are right now, so why need to make things complicated. In this song, although that guy really loves that girl and want that girl to stay but he do not want them to be more than what they are right now.

Don’t ask me anything
I can’t give you an answer
We’re so happy as we are right now

Don’t try to have me
Let’s just stay like this
You’re making it more painful, why?

Goodbyes after our frequent meet-ups
Repetition of broken hearts
I can’t find a purpose in these foolish feelings
A mistake with the mask of love
All the feelings are the same now
But in this moment, I want you to stay

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Let’s not fall in love, we don’t know each other very well yet
Actually, I’m a little scared, I’m sorry
Let’s not make promises, you never know when tomorrow comes
But I really mean it when I say I like you

Don’t smile at me
If I get attached to you, I’ll get sad
I’m afraid that pretty smile will turn into tears

Don’t try to trap us
In the word, love
Because it’s a greed that can’t be filled

At first, it was half excitement, half worries
But in the end, it became an obligation, trial and error
Day by day, I get nervous, your innocence is too much pressure on me
But tonight, I want you to stay

Don’t expect too much from me
I don’t wanna lose you either
Before things get too deep, before you get hurt
Don’t trust me

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well, I just love this song, the music and the video are great. What I can say one of my friends who was not into Korean songs surprisingly love this song. 

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9jTo6hTZmiQ

Rules to be happy~~

Hai n Assalamualaikum..

WELL, hmm sem break is gone, now I need to get ready to my routine as a student, you know with classes, sleep time which I just can't have enough, KOKO, short pocket money, assignments n deadline, test and pop quiz.   

Sometimes we all in need of some motivation, in case if you're having a bad day today or there are some bad memories that still haunting u..all u need is to keep moving on because simple word can describe about life is that : "LIFE GOES ON"..so, no matter how bad your situation or how hard people can understand how complicated your life is but you'll see we all  have our own problems. How to cope and handle with that and depends on that particular persons. Now, I want to share about rules to be happy. As happiness can make u feel stronger and will bring positive vibes to you and automatically to people around u.

1) Be grateful- First of all. be grateful with your life. Some people will have everything that you wanted in life e.g: fame, wealth, beauty etc but you should know  what you have right now such as family with love, good friends, good health .etc are good enough. Or every morning you wake up you should feel grateful to have one more chance to be alive. There are people who are struggling to fight for his/her life. Live simply n appreciate what u have

2) Give love- Random act of kindness that can help ur day become better such as smile at a stranger. Although sometimes is hard to show people you love that you love and care for them (like me). But pray in silence and be a good listener for them is good, try to learn express more your love and always stay with them through ups and downs. 

3) Stop overthinking- Stop takes everything too seriously. "Mistakes are proof that you are trying". It's okay to think that "what others think of you is none of ur business"..just know that you are not always right so you should learn from it and snap out of it.

4)Be Positive - when things don't go as u planned, remember that everything happens for a reason.. You should believe that sometimes God gives what u need not what u want.

5) Love yourself- How to live happily if you not even love yourself. You deserve to be happy and to be loved. Forgive yourself because you are not defined by your mistakes, just let go and focus on becoming better you. Live healthily and respect yourself.  

Rabbits in action

They're so clever tht they cn open their cages by themselves

Raya+ sembreak

Assalamualaikum n hye..
time tickin' so fast and today is already 10 Syawal.  Alhamdullilah, tahun ni dapat lagi beraya dan balik kampung. Yes, dulu lagi best sebab ada lagi opah and tok untuk dua2 belah family mak dan abah tpi sekarang semua dah x de. Cuma sekarang berkumpul dengan sedara-mara kat kampung.

This is my favourite tart nenas! The bestt kuih ni mak yong yang buat(my aunt)

My favourite kuih raya are semperit, tart nenes(pineapple tart), oat cookies and etc.. Main dish like rendang, lontong and kuah kacang with nasi impit. I love everything about Raya foods, people, songs,duit raya and everything. Selamat Hari Raya to all muslims around the world maaf zahir &batin.

Semester break is what I need!

Assalamualaikum n hyee..

One more paper which is contract+company+International law and after that is semester break.yayy!..can't wait to go home. Last semester break, I spent my holiday with family although both of them are bz but at least we went to watch movies, bowling, karaoke and visit relatives especially mak yong(aunt). I really love to go to there coz she always cook something like pengat pisang, laksa perak yang btol2 kaww susah nk jumpa sekarang, kuih2 kampung traditional which are  really hard to find with the same texture and taste, Caramel(my favourite) and lauk2 kampung(traditional dish) yang boom! Is not that my mom not a good cook, she is a good one but sometimes too bz to cook kuih2 smua tu. 

  Last semester break..

 Hang out with my friends, we went to eat of course, steamboat Seoul Garden. Just window shopping eating and nothing extraordinary but most importantly, we enjoyed it.  With a non-stop conversations, laughing and eating.

Lepas makan..lepak mkan auntie anne lagi

 No wait, yes I did some healthy activity with my friends. We climbed Broga Hills(last minute plan) and i went to Jump Street with my cousin n her friends.

For this upcoming sem break, I want to find a job to provide me pocket money or financial boost for the semester ahead. Really miss home-cooked meals I guess maybe I want to learn to cook some new dish or bake cake, especially during this fasting month. I want to learn how to make kuih raya.  BBQ with friends or wall climbing(maybe). Or quick road trip with family or friend to generate and recharge new energy. Last but not least, habiskan novel2 yg x habis baca wktu borong kt big bad wolf haritu...Now need to focus for this last paper. BYEE ;).

        

A friend

Another poemm...

When the days are cold and dark.
You always there and stay beside me,
Is it kind of faith or just a luck,
That I always know you stand behind me.

It will never be and there ain't no way,
That I will leave and be gone,
Now and forever I shall stay,
Because I know that I couldn't make it alone,
You always know how to make my days bright,
All my problems always you know how to make it light.

I can still remember your smile every time I close my eyes,
I can still hear every word you told me,
I can still remember that looks from your brown eyes,
I always will remember all the strength you gave to me.

Picture of a boy with a red cap that I keep,
Still I hang and put it in a frame,
That looks upon your face that appeared in my sleep,
Cause everything that used to be now longer be the same,
Now you are gone and forever will be,
You are my best friend and forever you will be.

Though my days without you not always bright,
But thought of you will make me smile,
I remember you as my hero or a knight,
I remember you as a friend that have a beautiful smile.

Chill babe! You've got a friend..Signs someone is ur good friend ;)

Assalamualaikum.. n hyee,
untunglah org tu nak mngedate ngan ayah dia n me just being a dormant and hibernating in my room sounds good enough for me. let's straight to the point now I want to talk about friend, since kindergarten, primary, secondary, uni's life we all met people with different background. Some of them u still keep in touch and lepak (hang out) together but some them u already lost contact with.

Just yesterday my old buddy since  8 years old just whatapps me n said hye. After so long, I was so happy and felt sorry at the same time bcoz I'm not the one who starts to reach  her first. She told me tht she's already engaged with someone. i was surprised like what! "Kau dah tunang!" Majlis prtunangan tu pon dia ckp kecil-kecilan dgn kaum keluarga trdekat tpi nnti majlis kahwin bru jemput smua including me. I was so happy for her and hope everything will be well.

Tak sangka kawan wktu kita sama2 comot dlu dah nak jadi isteri org. Wow, how time tickin' so fast.. Then she asked how about me? I told her maybe next 6-7 years kot..hehehe. Now she involved in online business with shawl, dress( dia design sendiri). make up. After graduate, she will marry to him(her fiancee) and will open her own business. Alhamdulillah dan harap smuanya akan brjalan lncar dan bahagia dunia dan akhirat.

my close friends right now(degree) but let's just keep their identity as secret.

Family comes first, but friends are also important and complete u as a whole. But, u know not everyone is ur good friend. Sometimes they act like they did  but they don't.And Sometimes they just take u for granted. This is some tips to know that if he/she is ur true friend. Reference: Wikihow, thoughtcatalog.com)- gila ke apa aku ni tgh final week sibok nak membelog.

1) Always there through ups and downs..not only there when u happy but also there to listen( if not there with u, through phone call or text) to u when u really low, 

2) Good listeners and straightforward in front of ur face not behind ur back. 

• If you know that your friend has gossiped or trash talked about you, especially on multiple occasions, then your friend is not a true friend.

3) Much like with family members, you can go extended stretches of weeks or months without talking and hanging out consistently, yet there’s no doubts about your relationship. Schedules get busy, circumstances arise, but your friendship remains fully intact.

4)  If you’re being an a-hole, they’ll make you aware of it to your face.

5) When a friend knows painful information (e.g. your crush hates the way your face looks), they’ll tell you. Maybe slightly modified to soften the blow, but they won’t leave you in the dark with false hopes, or headed down a disastrous path.

6)Insults  don't mean that they mean..insults can be normal jokes most of the times n nothing serious.

7)They’ve taken the dreadful, guaranteed to cause massive drama step of informing you that you’re being cheated on.

8)They’ve dropped you off at or picked you up from the airport. This is especially meaningful if you have something like a 5am flight.

9) There are silences, but they don’t feel the least bit uncomfortable or awkward. If you can sit down and shut up with a person, never feeling obligated to fill that hushed void, you’ve got a special connection.

10) Good company always makes u as a better person.

This is song about friend by Carole King.."You've got a friend" n this song about the true meanings of friendships.
Link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0XGX98OW4Rc

This is for u..yes u, cehh

     

Choices in life #deepthought

So much in dilemma right now.. either to go or not to go for tomorrow scholar interview. Dlu ad sorang senior yg dpt tawaran biasiswa yg sama dan dia ended up x prgi jgk, wktu tu  rasa pelik la kenapa dia x prgi sbb rugi sangat2. Tapi bila dah diri sendiri melalui baru faham process utk postponed paper wktu final susah n ad kemungkinan klau ad prkara yg x dpt dielakkan akn mnyebabkan kna repeat paper tu sem depan  Lepastu penilaian tu pula 3 hari brturut-turut bila dah consult with parents diorang pon sruh fokus utk final je Inshaa Allah ad rezeki lain nnti. Tu la bukan senang nak senang. Hmm today I want to share about choices in life. Everyone need to choose something in life and me as 20 years old still in the process of learning how to figure this out. Or sometimes, we choose something else and we really hope that thing will become reality but that thing ended up differently from what we planned and expected to be That's hurt,, but I believe everything happens for a reason. That's the way how life should be. We cannot just have everything in life, but that does not mean "give up" is the only option. Work and do ur best and leave the rest to ur maker, who is the best disposer of ur affairs. Copy image from google.